For the past week or so I've been watching pick up videos on youtube and I've been trying to talk to strangers and approaching girls here and there. Honestly I feel like I'm a creep and I can't get over this feeling of being socially anxious now because I'm so out of my comfort zone. This week I've been taking rejections and it really hurts my self esteem and its so stressful that I don't even focus on school. I think the fact that I invest so much time learning how to pick up girls is the reason why I feel so much pressure and stress and its really taking a toll on me. I think I have the wrong mentality of going out to meet girls every time I step out the door but I should just really focus on improving my life.