I need to do this. I was gonna do it today but I got too in my own head and started a spiral of self-doubt.

I know it won't go well as it's my first ever but I need to get it out of the way. It needs to happen the ball has to start rolling somehow.

But man it feels so stupid at the same time. Like I'm so mid. I'm gonna do it regardless I think cus I'm more regretful know than scared and that is much much worse.