I was watching Parks and Recreation recently on netflix and realized I was watching for hours. The past few days I was staying up until 5-6am or later juts watching the show. I did the same thing with breaking bad a while back and I just get so lost in these short shows.

It wasnt until tonight I had an epiphany. I went out today with a girl for coffee and desert (it wasnt a date at all.. She was a coworker of my roommate and we went out.) We had a great time and I really like the girl but it seems that there isnt much of a chance yet. Im working on it. Anyway I realized the feeling I got with this girl was the same I get watching couples on t.v. I watch the shows because it is the only way to get that emotional side that I crave. It is way more enjoyable than porn or anything to me and it shows clearly why I am not into hookups - even though I have a bootycall just a few texts away and yet I choose not to use it.

So what is the point? I wasnt even aware that I was living through this show. It makes me feel much more directed. I know the direction I want to take my life in but I have to get out of the house. I have to just get out of the house. All this makes me sound like my mother watching a soap opera which is not only disheartening but kinda pathetic, so I just write this to anyone who also lives vicariously through some form of media or whatnot. -

Get out of the house and dont become complacent until you have what you want. Whether it is a television show, redditing ridiculously, studying, or sharpening pencils - dont let yourself lose sight of what will truly satisfy you.