My wife left me after 12 years. It was for the best, i know that. In the time since i have been working on myself. Bonding more with my kids, my gods, myself. Making friends and finding myself. Mostly, i feel happier and so much lighter now.

except for at night, after i lay the kids down, the dogs are sleeping and the house is quiet. I just feel so damn alone. I cant get into my tv or games, i just feel overwhelmed with feelings of lonliness. I know i need to learn to be happy alone, but i havent been alone my entire life and i have no idea how to do that.

I want to hold someone and be held, i want to cuddle and feel appreciated and valued. I just want to not feel so trapped in this isolation and learn how to enjoy it. But i feel even though ive made so much progress in other areas ive made zero progress in this space.

Any advice is appreciated, idk what im doing and its all starting to bring back a depression i escaped a long ago and i cannot go back there.

Thank you to all who made it this far, and my sincerest gratitude to anyone with helpful advice to spare. May we all find peace and joy along our path. <3