TLDR: Can you tell us about it? What were your symptoms? How did you treat it? How has the treatment changed you? How has it improved your life? How has it hurt you? Did it change your outlook and bp/rp tendencies at all?

I ask because I've just turned 30, and losing my LTR really made me reevaluate a lot of shit in my life. I've been choking down The Pill for over a month now. I've been Forcing myself to the gym to lift for the past 6 weeks. Forcing myself to go out whenever possible. Forcing myself to pick up new hobbies (just started photography). Forcing myself to do things to not think about shit. I realized doing anything is a challenge and I have to Force it. This doesn't sound like me or who I want to be -- someone who has to fight with himself every day, it's exhausting.

Looking back over the last few years, I've basically turned into a zombie. I think i started heading downwards and noticed less energy around 5 years ago when i went for a sleep study because Apnea runs in the family and was told I was fine, so i just trudged on thinking it was in my head and let it gradually get worse.

The past 2-3 years have been work, home, tv, eat, sleep, repeat with no desire for much else. I'd want sex, but haven't really desired it in a long time, if that makes sense -- I haven't really been horny, I'd just think I should have sex out of boredom or something. I used to like to dominate in bed, light bondage and stuff too, but now i feel like acting when i do it instead of it being natural. Now I get the occasional morning wood, like a few times a month if I'm luckya. I've become completely risk adverse, not doing half the shit I used to... Never wanted to go out, just sit around the house and watch NetFlix. etc.

Read a thread here about Low T and went hmmm... Went to Doc, got bloodwork, I have low Testosterone (160 from a "normal" range of 250-1000) and low B12 (168 where normal range is 180-300). Now I have to see an endocrinologist. I've been reading about Low T and I'm thinking "could this be the cause of why I'm such a pussy?". Is this the reason for all the shit I've mentioned earlier. Is this why I feel like I'm constantly in a low level depression with almost a fog in the air. I'm curious if anyone else with low T has felt this way and how much of it was resolved with treatment.

I read about the ArtOfManliness ron swanson diet and while I do want to try that, I will talk to a specialist first. I also used to use propecia and heard that could cause issues too..