Things started out great, she was 22 and a solid 8. I managed to game her from across an ocean (her Canadian, me British) but she also gamed me too. Telling me how she was abused and raped and as a result has an insane sex drive, she sucked her first cock at 12. So yeah more red flags than anyone can imagine, but I was horny and stupid.

So after lots of cam sex I went over there to see her. I was pretty inexperienced but she was (and still is) absolutely wild in bed. So naturally I fall in love. I go back and we have a rocky LDR where she cheats on me twice. She is a total Alpha Widow to some dude from Texas and she was still technically with him when she was with me.

After a lot of drama including her 'attempting' to kill her self, we manage to work things out and she comes over here to live with me. After a year we are married, and four years later I couldn't be happier. I have given her everything, paid off her debts and helped her set get own business up and I am very much a beta.

Here is where my best 'friend' and co-worker steps in. He is divorced himself, lifts, is Alpha with girls and I was totally blind. When he was going through a recent breakup I was helping him, taking him out talking till early in the morning. Little did I know he was actually making moves on my wife. I discovered chat with all the virtual sex you can imagine with the worst comment from her 'it's like the 5 year hiatus is over'. Basically he gave her the tingles and the rest is history. Here lies my dilemma.

I now see what I did wrong (oh so many things). But I never EVER want to have morals as low as my dick bag ex-friend. I would never be able to live with myself if I did that to someone I care about. However if I was truly being TRP, she would just be another unsatisfied plate to score on, and I wouldn't be able to resist.

Maybe the conflict isn't as real as I think it is. I still get to decide what actions to take. It's just the thought of changing to be anything like dick bag makes me want to kill myself.

Help.