I (24F) can’t explain it but physically I feel like I can’t breathe and that the world has suddenly been dimmed to pure darkness. When does it get better? How does it get better? Do you ever forget? Does it hurt progressively less overtime?

I’ve been with this guy (28M) for over four years. I can safely say I adored him and followed so much of the RPW philosophies. He was this beautiful king in my eyes. We’ve had our shitty moments, but more good ones than bad ones. He was my first everything. I suspect that’s why it feels like such a stab in the heart.

It’s been over a month. I know it’ll take so much longer to accept it, let alone get over it, but I don’t know where to start.