To put it mildly, interactions with women have been awful forever.

My two grandmas are literal psycho's who hate their own children, my mom is ok but mentally abusive when I was young. Aunts are also rotten, you get the picture.

The teachers in high school I liked the least were conveniently women, not the only person in my graduation class to feel the same btw.

Girls in my grade were stereotypical blackpill tropes, they had attitudes and liked the attractive asshole guys, even a dude who was outright racist, remember having a class with this same dude and every single girl sat around him in the front of the class, like what the fuck 😆. It sounds like fiction typing this out, but it isn't.

I live in Minnesota and hard to imagine it's just the state or something.

My therapist is helpful, but still need these beliefs changed, and not just with words.

What prompted this post is I got coffee this morning, and the lady in the drive-thru who used to be nice to me "Rare experience for myself", but the last few times I've went, she seems to get more unfriendly every time. This morning she basically gave me the coffee and just shut the screen door immediately.

I go out in public and nothing comes of it. Women don't look at me and never feels like they want to talk to me. Wish I knew what was wrong.