Ex cheated April 2022. Divorced finalized July 2023 I just want to make it clear that I do not want to get back with her. I actually have nightmares that we are back together occasionally and wake up in cold sweats thanking the universe it was just a dream. But every day I think about her, what she did and how it effected my kids and myself with the decisions she made. I used to have a philosophy that I lived by that went something like… “No matter how bad your life is, just imagine one year from now it will all be over and you’ll forget” Well here it is over one year later and I still think about the trauma. I even hear through the grapevine what friends and family say “he is not the same person he used to be, his happiness has been washed off his face”