I'm in a very tough spot guys. Stbx is not playing ball with scheduling the kid (4 year old) days. She had this weekend off and wants next weekend off too because apparently she told me and I didn't acknowledge it and it's my fault. I have a 3 week vacation coming up so I can't do something stupid and have her retaliate and ruin this trip for me too.

I was planning to take a girl for a trip out of town, but I might need to cut ties with her because I'm just not there anymore. This woman is ruining my life... Its probably early to get involved with other girls, but she's screwing other dudes so why is this too soon? It's not, I want to enjoy my time too.

As I got heated up, my immediate thought was to check with my lawyer, but I don't think that's helpful nor cheap for something petty like this. It is having a huge impact on my health though, I can't recall being this stressed in my life. I can't seem to be able to make any progress, complete stuck... Still going through separation and can't get her to sign a 50/50 custody yet.

You might think this is crazy but I've had ideas about just disappearing somewhere in the world and not even say goodbye to anyone. Leaving my son is pretty difficult but the stress I'm dealing with because of a selfish monster I tied a knot with is unbearable. My Whatsapp name is a cockroach, can you believe it? I've done everything for this person and now I'm a cockroach! Well... I hope karma is real.

Anyway, no easy way out of this, just needed to vent. Some days are ok and some are just horrible. Dont even know what I'm doing here anymore. Do I keep fighting? How do I keep fighting this? Family law doesn't seem to be siding with me right now... How do I push back?