I (30m) told my wife (27f) the papers for no contest would be ready when she gets her stuff Friday. Just need the signature. She replies "yes, I'd like it to be civil and amicable". Im sure she does, and at this point I do too.

So ya it's over. At this point I'm like fuck it, it's done. She is moving on and I sure as hell need to as well.

But I'm an addict by default. I let my lesser instincts take hold sometimes. I miss the sex. It was pretty phenomenal at one point in time. And so I asked to hookup one last go, no strings attached.

Probably a little bit of dignity I'll have to get back at some point down the line. Getting to this state of mind where I just don't care. Dignity was lost long ago and I'm just gonna shamelessly shoot my shot in life for now. Rejection can't be much more embarrassing then what I've already put myself through these past few years, right?