I've been divorced for 2 years. The first year I was pretty happy that I got rid of her because she was very abusive and always upset about anything. Now that I've been without her for 2 years, I want her back. I'm an average guy but I'm tall, so I get girls when I'm trying. The problem is that my ex is very hot (out of my league hot) and we have a son together. She has been withholding timesharing time for almost a year now (this should resolve in July when the hearing takes place), so I miss my son and the less I hear from her the more I miss her. She has a restraining order against me (no hearing yet but she got the temporary one with lies, she might get a permanent one because that's how the system works). I know that I am absolutely ridiculous for ruminating about wanting her back, but I would love to have a family and see my son every day. I just really love to spend time with my son and to have a partner. Also, financially, I am staying afloat but I'm not able to save money right now. I'm thinking about a career change but don't know what to do (I've been serving at restaurants in Europe, might do that here. I'm good on working on my own cars/handy, and I consider that IT might be a way out). Should I just forget about my thought or see what happens once the restraining order gets dismissed? I think the RO also made me want her back because it messes with your head and she didn't annoy me since that order is in place.