My wife has initiated divorce 2 months ago. She is away for the weekend staying at a friends house enjoying herself with yoga and whatever. I am at home with our 11 year old son.

Laat night I woke up at 3.30 am, heart racing and very emotional. I had a nightmare where I was walking on a higher level floor in a shopping mall with my STBXW, lights dim and deserted, we were approaching the escalators down. All of a sudden she says “ok forget it then!”, runs towards the balcony next to the escalators and hops over the rim sideways to commit suicide. This is when I woke up almost crying.

I am having nightmares every day since my wife announced the divorce. They normally are about a fight, or my son and me losing everything I worked for and had planned for. But this one was completely next level since still love her.

My wife has run off often when she was angry, especially when we were on holidays or going someplace nice. Happened almost every time. Maybe that experience combined with my feelings of guilt of not making her happy (enough) let to this? I know dreams are just coping with emotions and experiences during daytime but this was just weird and intense…

Edit: I don’t get it… why are people downvoting my post?