We have a mutual separation agreement signed but I’ve yet to file for the divorce itself yet, partially because of being super busy, partially because I just am emotionally drained and not ready for a whole new round of legal shit to attend and deal with. STBX stays on my insurance through the finalization of divorce so I was letting her know we met our deductible and she can go to the doctor for free now. She was due for an IUD replacement next month… but told me she won’t be getting another one even though it won’t cost anything.

She almost died having our son… now she’s going to not only roll those dice again with a man she’s known for less than 6 months and lived with for less than 3… but she’s going to put our still-reeling son who is still trying to adjust to everything with the divorce into a situation with a new baby. She’s not seeking a full time job or anything she would need to actually be a provider for him or a new baby and her bf is a factory worker who makes a fraction of what I do and I was already struggling to make ends meet with her spending habits. I’m terrified of how unhinged she gets when hormonally imbalanced too and how it might affect our son to be around and what psycho legal shenanigans she may try to pull. It also seems like she’s upset that she doesn’t get our son at all times now and she needs a small human to possess or she can’t live with herself. It’s making me hesitant to make any more moves until she reveals her hand and terrified of what it will be like dealing with her for our son’s upcoming teen years if he doesn’t fit into her new ideal family unit (which he’s starting to see he doesn’t).