Feels appropriate in a way. Just thinking out loud really. 18 year relationship, married at 20. 3mo in apx, we split mid November 2025. She monkey branched me basically and spent Xmas with a new man and his family a month later. No kids luckily.

Just to give basic outline. Anyways, I’ve been making lemonade best I can. Started losing weight around October to start a family then this happened but didn’t fall back to booze. Kept the momentum and lost 36 lbs to date.

A couple weeks ago, right before my bday she scheduled to put our dog of 15 years down. Didn’t consult me or inform me of her health declining to that point but I was ok with it because she had both eyes removed and had a discussion previously about quality of life and honestly I don’t trust her to care for her properly so I was ok with her not living so dimly. I of course showed up for the euthanasia and guess who she brought? 😂 I happened to show up literally pulling up to the vet behind them, I think the surprise got him and she couldn’t even look at me. It’s fine, I dealt with it like a monk and prayed before cause I had a feeling and was able to focus and mourn my baby and held her in her last 35 min of life here at least but ever since then it’s been like a slow drag on my mind. I’ve lost momentum with my workouts although just finished an hour walk/jog just now. I feel like I was better at month 2 then now. Anyways I was happy to sign docs this week which basically will go to judge and sign off and nothing else to do but wait until July. We are going thru a prep service with uncontested divorce. Idk why but she’s been “stranger” lately. I told her no talk outside divorce or the pets and I feel like she’s mad and trying to provoke me for not chasing her? Idk… I left out apartment the next day when she told me she wanted a divorce with no warning and haven’t looked back. Lots of pain, much less sadness which im grateful for. I think the betrayal has helped me move on. I think I just want finality and move on from someone that used me and I gave everything to and worried she’ll go back on things we already agreed on. Again just thinking out loud. I’ll be ok but just feel like I got a weighted vest on physically and a little numb. I just felt compelled to share. Godspeed.