Last night I told my wife of 18 years that I wanted a divorce. I’ve been working towards that moment for 6 months spending time in therapy, self reflection, and decided this is the best thing for me and our children (15,12,10).

I prepared for that moment for months. I got myself physically and mentally in order. Prepared for the conversation. I held my cool during the conversation even though it long than I wanted (she is pushing for reconciliation).

I was ok when I went to bed last night but I have been an emotional wreck all day today. I’m at working trying to keep it together.

Last night we decided to continue the conversation tonight. I’m not looking forward to it.

My friend says you can’t start rebuilding until I hit rock bottom. I’m well on my way there. I will eventually need to tell my kids.

Wish me strength to get through this time.