When I was in my 20’s I had fallen prey to RP behaviors and let them take hold of me. I was an sort of an asshole to women because I thought that was what would attract them to me and when I look back on how I behaved toward them I feel so much shame and guilt for being the jerk I was. My mother has always been an amazing presence in my life and is such a strong woman that it makes me ashamed how I could believe all that RP garbage when it is a complete insult to her and other women. I’m a much better person now that I got rid of that RP garbage but my guilt over past behavior crops up now and again and it causes me to think I’m a horrible person for acting how I did.