First post was STFU and Clean... that's what I've been doing. Since Sunday I've been working, cleaning the house, building shit, lifting (already a habit), finished NMMNG..accomplished a lot more than even I thought possible.
Fiance is on the rag last week and into this week. Been initiating and either AA or AM when I get shot down. I just want a BJ but she's not having it. I used to get pissed after the 3rd rejection in a row but this time around I just go about my business very un-butthurt..whistling, play with the dog, whatever but generally try to distance myself from her physically. Always nice and positive if she comes to me later on.
Anyways last night got home she was on the couch watching useless tv, I said hi quick kiss, did my stuff, then started messing with her. She went to change into workout clothes and was pulling up her yoga pants in front of the mirror..great ass shot. I"m like hang on let me check you for spinal alignment and had her pull her pants back down and bend over..worked like a charm. she laughed and whatever. down the hall I picked her up on a half wall and started kissing her and dropped my pants down and joked around some more. She played with it a little bit but wasn't interested and "had to get to the gym". As she's leaving I'm working on something and she goes "if you're nice to me maybe I'll be nice to you later" OLD me would have melted and been all about it. THIS time I'm standing above her on a ladder (dominate body language) and say "I don't need to be nice to you" smirk and a kiss. Here I'm thinking I kino'd well got her tingles going to hit me up with the BJ later.
Gets back from gym, initiate after a while, and get shut down. Her: "I need to paint my nails, get my clothes ready for tomorrow, blah, blah, all you want is sex...there is no conversation you just attack." I don't bring up her previous "promise" like the old me but but but you said you said...i just reply "Lions just attack baby" Laugh and then leave the room to go read.
She does her business then comes to me and "all you want is sex lately, and you're not telling me things, and you just want physical nothing emotional, we haven't had a conversation, why can't you just hang out with me, I'm on my period gates are closed, you could've reminded me your friend was coming tonight, now i know why you cleaned (i literally forget he was staying with us until that morning and had no effect on me cleaning)" all BS (except the gates being closed, she forgets there's more than one gate to that yard). Anyway I'm literally smirking through this whole thing and just keep my mouth shut ...again old me would have explained all the shit I did and the conversations we had but I just STFU and actually laugh...then go give her a hug when she's done. (assumed comfort test and didn't want to look like a retard because I couldn't think of anything to say without DEERing)
Leave to go pick up my buddy from the airport get the text "Sorry I'm being a bitch, i just feel like things are off. Maybe I'm just out of it or something" some time later I just replied "must've been the pork" (she was complaining after dinner that the pork made her stomach feel weird) Get home with my buddy and his wife around midnight, she's asleep i go to bed.
Was my comfort assumption correct? Text response seemed to me as holding frame? can't do much about the rejection but solider on.