I post here everyday but I don't want to get laid a lot. I just talk theory because it's interesting if depressing and it helps me understand people better. There was a recent thread about anal and it was just all gibberish to me. I sort of know what anal is but I don't think much about sex positions. My idea of porn is basically jerking off to a lad's mag and quite often they have clothes on, now I have Google Images and that's great as well as Instagram, Pinterest and the BB Misc. I grew up in a religious household but both of my siblings lost their virginity before me. I am still figuring out how to use a condom. I fazed out a bit of my sex ed. classes. The idea of sticking my penis in a vagina feels wrong. What if I get an STD. Lots of things
What I want most in life right now is for women to respect me. Well people to respect me but it is easier to get men to respect me, the focus through my life has always been women for some reason. Sometimes I talk to HSW on Facebook and I sense by the way she talks to me she doesn't respect me. Lots of TBP doesn't respect me. Lots of TRP doesn't respect me. I don't think my ex respects me. Oh hell were we exes? The only relationship thing about us was that I loved her. We got as far as 2nd base and I was nearly 21 LOL. She was one of the few girls in my life who respected me because all the others would look down on me if they knew some of this stuff, and then Superman came along who even if she didn't fuck him I knew she'd respect more because he's not so weird. Now she's best friends or more with Superman. She thought I was gaming her but I wasn't. I found TRP last year when we had 'broke up' and our friendship was already going downhill.
Everyone looks down on me. It's like sex and relationships=respect to me. Things I lack.
Tomorrow I have a work capability assessment with the DWP and I have to write down lots of things which are humiliating to keep my sick leave pay. Things which may not be 100% true but basically say that I cannot properly function. Stuff like I do not know how to do any more complex a task than set up an alarm clock. That I need my parents to feed me and wash dishes. That I had to be brought to the assessment by my mom because I'd have panic attacks. Not to mention that I am staying up very late reading Rational male and PPD most nights. Given male disposability etc. it's all just a reminder of my lack of external output or genetic value.
I am wondering why I had joined a sexual strategy sub when I neither have the libido, the motivation nor the interest in sex. I'm wondering how many young men would also join for purposes they don't fully understand.I don't see why a red pill lifestyle (specifically taking up lots of free time to plate spin, as opposed to just improve myself and then bag an LTR/get respected) appeals to me when the top and bottom of it is sex. But id dos? I assume I must think that men who don't get sex get less respect too, implicitly.
Despite this I spend hours a day procrastinating and compulsively masturbating to my version of porn? That makes no sense.
tl;dr why am I here, is anyone else in the same boat? I feel tired today. I am lying in my PJs cross legged on the couch hearing music which isn't there it's just in m head
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