I’ll post a full version of this story tomorrow but I have to get this rant out because I have no one to talk to.

Disclaimer: my ex is not technically my best friend’s brother, they are maternal cousins that were raised as siblings.

Long story short, I met my best friend two years ago when I started working at a bar with her. She trained me and took me under her wing and we became fast friends. A few months later, I met her brother and we started dating and everyone was happy because at the time, I thought he was very sweet.

Two weeks ago, we had a huge fight because of built up resentments because he’s fucked up too many times and I stayed because I have lots of trauma and I blame things on myself and I’m a recovering pick-me. We havent spoken since until I got the news this morning. And by news he texted me “I have a family emergency” and didn’t answer me all damn day. I was anxious and panicking because I have severe anxiety and I am close with his family and was before I even met him.

He then texted me the news at 4 p.m when I was asleep because I had to take a xanax so I didn’t have a panic attack. He told me all the friends and family had come over to her house to grieve. When I told him I just had to shower and be on my way, he told me not to come over. He ignored all my messages of me saying she was my friend and I’m close with his family and I want to be there for her mom, brothers, cousins, aunts, uncles and friends. He told me no again because he “needs to grieve in his own way”. I can’t even grieve my friend because I am way too fucking furious.

I should have left him two months ago when I stayed with him and his family all night when his grandmother was taken off life support and as soon as her body was taken away, he kicked me out of the house because “he needed to grieve in his own way”. I hadn’t slept all night and had to drive a half hour home on the highway and was having a hard time to stay awake.

I just don’t know what to do. He lives in the same house as my friend’s mom so she probably thinks I’m being rude when I’m literally not allowed over by him.

I truly hate and resent this man after all he did to me and will never forgive him for this.