Lately I’ve been getting feelings of depression, they come and go but usually in the morning I’m motivated and ready to go, but as they day goes on my mood starts to go downhill. I’m 20 years old, a bodybuilder, I’m in an LTR, and I use steroids. I built up to 245 rather lean, the best I have ever looked.. then both my gyms shut down.

Being in the gym is my everything, it’s what I live to do. I look great, but my motivation has plummeted. I have no desire to workout at home, I’m still going to work 6 days a week but I feel as something has been missing. I still see my girlfriend once a week, but I still feel empty.

I rarely play video games and I do not watch porn, I’m not going to let myself succumb to that. I know what I need to do, learn more skills, be productive, but not doing what I love has taken it’s toll on me. I need some advice, and some encouragement to get myself through this.

I usually feel as I have everything under control, and that I don’t need help, but this emptiness is killing me. I feel lonely, but I know these negative feelings truly never go away. That’s just apart of being a man, we need to learn how to work past them.