For the last half year I've been chasing this woman. She would always complain to me when she would feel sad and lonely, ugly or rejected but whenever I would try to grt romantically involved she would say shit like "I would if you weren't my best friend" or "I'm not ready for a relationship right now." Well, apparantly she was ready to screw my coworker who didn't even know her last name or care about any of her problems like I did. I found out today and it lowkey shattered me, I thought about waiting up for her texts, remembering what she had talked about so I would seem sincere and caring. Her telling me that she "loved" so many things abiut me, giving me hope. I wanted to distract myself from the pain so I looked around my house for something to do. And then BAM. All the shit I had put on hold popped out at me. My life was just.....lying there waiting. The bass I used to practice, the dmv book for my driving test so I could drive the jeep. The wooden chest I never finished staining. The weights I used when I cared about my figure 30+ lbs ago. When the fuck did all this fall away from me? I put so much of my happiness into her and what she thought I was that I forgot WHO I was. Today I woke up, brothers. Today was my day.