Preface: Been saving this story for a while because I wanted to write it in full and just couldn't find the time. For anyone who has been rejected or 'obsessed' with their oneitis, I urge you to give it a read.
Background: When I was 23 I was getting my MBA. At 23, I was the physical equivalent of a senior in high school finishing up puberty; acne, baby fat in the face, no muscle whatsoever. I wasn't unattractive (still relatively in shape, decent height, etc), but pretty far behind on the physical scale.
Anyhow, there was a girl at a party I went to one weekend. The party was at one of my good buddy's house, and he had them frequently, so the girl and I knew each other very loosely. She is generously a 7 with makeup, but for some reason my 23 year old brain was fixated on her (for absolutely no apparent reason).
At the party I asked for her number and we exchanged names and basic info. Flash forward to about a week later and I out of the blue just texted her one morning: hey, this is X from the party. Was wondering if you wanted to go out some time.
Her response: Hey, I'm sorta seeing someone right now. Although that sounds like it could be fun.
Even way back then she was shameless about her AWALT tendencies. She was in a relationship (which was confirmed as true), but explicitly said going out with me for attention could be fun. Doesn't get much clearer than that.
So of course I just dropped it - was not interested in being merely friends. Over the semester she tried to text me frequently, and I would foolishly answer if I was drunk or just in the mood for some attention (guys, do not do this).
There's much more that happened in between, but it all came to a head when she messaged me: hey, my boyfriend is in town, and we are going out to drinks with some people, do you want to come?
I should've just ignored her, but instead I sent her one final message along the lines of: Look, I'm not really interested in hanging out with you and your boyfriend, and I'm not really down for this friendship where I'm being used for attention. I think we should stop talking to each other.
After that I deleted her on FB, deleted her on Snapchat, and stopped answering her texts completely. She tried desperately to continue being friends, but I refused to have that. It wasn't that I was even opposed to keeping minimal contact (which is still a mistake), but she was so shameless in her hamster tendencies that I couldn't feel good about myself having any contact.
Fast forward 2 years to about 3 months ago - I am a totally different person. Took on a strict diet, went on accutane (guys, if you're suffering from acne -> this is your magic bullet), adhered to an intense cardio routine, and also balled out pretty hard at my consulting job. I have absolutely no problem with females and I actually fuckin love my life.
Emphasized point: I have not spoken to the girl in 2 years.
So I am in my college town for a networking event at the end of the summer. All of my buddies (including this girl) still live in town because they are aspiring doctors, going to med school and doing fellowships and whatnot.
My group of friends decide to go out and get drinks, and while out we see the girl's best friend. The timing and situation could not have been more movie like.
Girl's best friend recognizes me: "oh my god, how are you?! You look so different. How's life....blah blah blah."
I give her the scoop, that I'm traveling around the country for work, I'm really happy, I got into fitness, the whole 9 yards.
Like fuckin clockwork, later that night I get a text from the girl: Hey I heard you're in town, I know it's been a while, would love to see you!
Mistake on my part - I absolutely should not have met up with her. I knew we would fuck, but she is far below the girl's I am pulling right now. Let this be a lesson to all you guys with so called revenge fantasies...that shit is not fulfilling in any way.
So we met up later that night at a bar by her apartment. She updates me on her life: 26, approaching the wall, still has acne and in my opinion has gone down to an absolute 6, still doesn't know if she wants to go to medical school, is doing pointless research, basically has no money.
All of this meaning: I am approaching the wall, have no fuckin' plan in life, for the love of God help me please.
Meanwhile she tells me how different I look, how I 'grew up', how she really regrets not going on a date with me back in the day.
We end up fucking later that night in her apartment, and now she texts me on the daily, saying how much she likes me, giving me the play by play on her life, and I ignore most of the messages. She took a train into New York City one night simply to fuck me.
Lessons Learned:
- AWALT AWALT AWALT - there is absolutely nothing about me internally that is different from when I'm 23. I'm simply better looking and more successful. To some of the comments about my SMV increasing - even at 23 I was pulling in just above 100k as a 2nd year analyst, and far from unattractive. Just young looking.
- The Wall is real - 24, sorta hot, aspiring med student with some decent intelligence, this girl had the pick of the field. Now semi-approaching 30, I could probably ask this girl to marry me via text message and she'd say yes.
- CUT THE REVENGE FANTASY - I'm sure everyone wants to experience it for themselves, but all I can do is say that fucking this girl gave me no marginal benefits relative to fucking any other hotter girl.
- With Regard to a Comment: My 23 year old self was not RP....I'm still not totally RP all the time. It's a toolkit that I'm still integrating into my life. Edit: this point seems to be getting a lot of attention too. I'm not saying revenge wasn't part of my recent relationship with this girl - I'm saying that having experienced this, I'd like to point out that while in theory revenge sounds satisfying, it probably won't be in reality.
- EDIT again: To be clear, I harbored no negative feelings towards this woman, and still don't. She's allowed to be uninterested in me for any given reason. I admitted that I willingly provided her orbiter attention...which is my fault, not hers. Simply was just rehashing the facts. And regarding the initial text...she was 100% in a relationship at the time, reiterated by numerous people in our social circle. Her AWALT tendencies manifest in seeking attention from - and potentially going on dates - with other guys while in an exclusive relationship.
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