A lot has been happening lately, this crap of being in the house most of the time is like RP on ultra hard, been having arguments often, some good, some bad.
But this has made me start to wonder if its really worth it, i mean is it really worth it? wife has been great 90% of the time, great sex, sexy, nice food, great with the kids etc.
But everything works like a tense peace, if i slip a bit she is like a shark on blood, i know i have to keep my game at 100%, but at the same time is tiring.
The years i was single/divorced i used to do beautiful elegant code, because my mind was calm 90% of the time, made money everywhere. The years i have been married/ltr i live in tension, either from going beta and living with a bitch, or keeping my game at all times.
not planning to to MGTOW but started to romantize living without a partner, just plates, have the kid 50/50 and enjoy freedom.