Hey,

I don't understand something. I play my role; cooking is pretty great, my cleaning is daily and I work. As well as go to the gym, I'm 5 ft even at 115 lbs and two kids. Because I did work. Please also I'm a student in college.

He still looks at porn. My guy and I have done a lot of sexual things and it's mostly me putting in the work. Sometimes I even go past my own comfort zones just to make him happy. He works over ten hours a day and when he comes home? He has food waiting or I'll have dinner ideas otherwise, I wash his feet, clean house and sleep otherwise.

What porn is he needing where he thinks I can't please him? I'm mad because our sex is sometimes really intense; gagging, puking, roleplay, all I can think of. He does it and we don't do it sometimes cos he watched porn already. I say we'll watch porn with me. Never he has done such.

Is my sex drive too much? What's worth the energy if he won't tell me what I can do that he need to watch porn? I'm getting mad because I want this to be about us not because of porn. IDC if he watched it but he says it's because I'm not there. He has stuff we made so... Am I being irrational or what? I want to do the things he's interested in but he won't answer me when I ask "what is this porn you need when I never see deny you what you want?" I'm usually tired now, I'd like to please him but he just gives his sex-drive to porn...?

Update: thanks for the replies, I wanted to edit now this morning just because the insight has helped me get my head right. I hope it helps anyone else here. I really think the combination of my busy schedule, his long work hours and our short time in the week we have together I shouldn't give him shit. I'm just worrying because I don't want to be anything less than he wants of a woman. This also shows my imagination and insecurities were getting the best of me.