Red pill has killed/build me as a person. I’ve never been a “girl”. I’ve always tried to be a boy. Not a tomboy, an actual boy. Mor or less out of survival. I won’t get into that, but long story short I became red pilled about 2 years ago. All the worse/best information, and long story short, I’m in the Air Force Reserves (should’ve went to the navy but whatever) because I can take this shit.

I don’t know my value. Outside of my ability to be a man’s inspiration to thrive and a good emotional support, it seems I am not of much more. I admit I have an inferiority complex , becauseI’ve had to be a man my whole childhood to not be made fun of for being a girl. I don’t see the value as (equally)very personal, or honorable. Such as war, inventors, and such. Women go after those type of men. Concubines, mistresses, and trophy wives, they are somehow better than me. Because they are having babies for the 1% men of society. I can’t get a haram, or become a genius inventor and my value increase. Because men don’t care. And I’m nothing important. Even though I love kids, I don’t know if I’d be a good mom. My boss replaced his child’s mother with a 21 year old, and the kid couldn’t care less. I’m not saying that’s common, but It says I am replaceable. So I don’t get caught up in kids and don’t really pay attention to moms as much before I was rd pilled. I’m not sure if I can bear the mental hell it would be to have a child. I can’t teach it nothing, because the father could do it better, meaning I as a (future) military officer couldn’t be as a good assist to my son. Its likely my daughter will be a career mom, can’t teach her much about that.

However, women here are very interesting. Y’all seem to find the value in being moms. Im not a idiot, motherhood are nature. And marriage is lovely. But being “submissive” as a virtue, doesn’t strike me as something to add to your tombstone. I don’t know any girls like that, except my mom friends who are becoming more feminine.