Apologies for this being off topic, but I'm genuinely curious if anyone around here has some rudimentary psychology knowledge and can explain what I and so many others are doing in spaces like this.

Everytime I visit, I get sent into a depressive spiral and want to end everything. Truth is unbelievably painful, but I can't stop myself from seeking it out, it feels like an addiction almost.

I know I'm not the only one, does anyone understand why? What are our brains trying to accomplish by learning things we don't want to know?