She cheated. She makes more but it’s off the books. I’m trying to keep the house, she moved out in November 2023. She is demanding 53,000 and I’ll get 11,000 back in QDRO. I don’t have nearly enough to cover that, going to have to sell the house and my 2.99% rate and basically be homeless with my dog. I’ll get some in return from sale due to equity but not enough to do much. I just want to die, what do I do now? Just go begging for money?