First off I have a mental heath appointment scheduled to try and help also. My hellbeast ex wife took our three young kids while I was at work. I didn’t see them for three months. She got primary custody even though I wanted 50/50. She left because she said she was belittled and felt like a maid. She was a stay at home mom and I paid all the bills. I’m paying a ton of child support and now I have to sell the house and give her 16k in addition to half the equity for the crap she left behind even though I dont want the stuff. She took my kids and money and there is not shit I can do about it. I have been having both homicidal and suicidal thoughts that keeps me awake. If you have any advice please share