I don’t hate my stbx, in many ways I have so much sympathy for her, but I am just so mad at her for writing me off as “just an unhappy person” and not getting her shit together as she created drama with everybody in her life. I’m so mad she just didn’t fucking care enough to realize that I was at the end of my wits. I poured 15+ years into our marriage even as I had doubts as to doing so and she just kept crashing. I communicated clearly, did marriage counseling, forgave when she drunkenly threw things at me. Now she misses me and texts me sexually and just wants me to spend the night. But I just can’t. I’m so mad at her for fucking this up. I don’t want to be restarting at this age. I’m not in shape for this. I don’t have cool pics for the apps. I’m fucking broken. And I know our kids have been traumatized by the marriage. Now she’s sending pictures of me with them. I hate that I’m going to not see them every day. I am just so fucking mad at her selfishness. And at her emotional manipulation as she tries to get me to not go through with this but I have absolutely no question in my mind at this point that this is what needs to happen.