I am struggling with loneliness and pain this morning. My wife and I separated 5 months ago; it was not amicable. Since then she has lied and accused me of DV, ceased communicating about co-parenting, and overall just made everything extremely difficult. I will admit that initially I engaged in begging and pleading to try to hopefully convince her not to destroy our family. I stopped doing that in the last couple months though as it was causing too much pain for me and I found out she was collecting screenshots of my pleading for reasons unknown.

It is just hard for me to understand how a person I shared a life with for 15 years can try to cause so much pain towards me. I had to hire a lawyer to defend against the false accusations. I am sickened by worry that she will try to leverage this into taking custody of our son away from me. My lawyer feels that everything will be dismissed due to there being no evidence, but damn is it painful.

Also, I am trying my hardest to not get deported from the country I live in all at the same time.