Well shit got weird.... If you don't know my story here's a quick rundown.

8 year marriage, active duty military, spouse cheated multiple times while I was deployed, and has mental instability and issues. We've been separated for almost 9 months. Amicable for the most part recently. Still cohabitating which can be rough, still going through divorce process which is inevitable.

Anyway. I slept with someone tonight, old fling from high school as we came home for the weekend. 1st new person in like 9 years... Afterwards, I felt good, but also extremely empty and emotional and like I betrayed her and my child. Idk if this is normal or if it's the first time since everything. I just don't know. I don't know if it's like a sexual awakening and it'll get easier, or if I just made shit worse for myself.. any advice is great