Hello Men - been awhile. Hoping many of you are thriving. And for those that are not, hope you are surviving and processing.

So, been a few months since I was active. Thought I would jump back on to give a mixed review update.

Divorce process is mostly done. MSA signed and in front of the judge so we can go final then divvy up the assets.

The process was fine. Outcome not as amazing but is what it is.

I’m keeping the house. Kids 50%. Sending a lot of money in alimony and child support but hey, that’s California.

Was processing well (therapy, working out, new job, hitting the dating apps) but have stalled out after about 4 months.

Things were ok. Not great but ok. This last month has been a bit of a setback emotionally. Work is getting stressful. Managing the kids and the dog and the bills and all the stuff is stressful. The support system (friends / family) has all but disappeared which is normal but a bit disappointing.

Dating apps worked ok for a few months. Gave me something to do. Had a fling or 2 and dates but nothing serious.

Worse thing frankly is the loneliness is starting to creep back in. That and my lack of passions / purpose (other than kids and work) is tough. Sometimes I miss the concept of my X (not her but the partnership / relationship). Sometimes I think maybe I screwed up but again that’s just the emotion not the reality. Doesn’t help that the last week some shitty dreams have reemerged. Her sleeping with people, etc. and I know: let them. And generally I am at peace with it. Just don’t wanna dream about it.

So yeah, guess this is the process. Not linear. Just hopeful that time will do the work to heal the wounds. Also hoping I find a passion or whatever. But I’ve worked for 26 years straight. Never really had anything that brought me joy. Guess that’s my main concern.

Anyway, so is the way.

Wishing everyone peace, joy, happiness, fulfillment, and if you are looking for it, love and acceptance.