I'm 38, a virgin with very little experience, short, unemployed, disabled, and skinny fat. I have a girlfriend and she says she loves me and wants to move across the country to be with me, but I don't believe her. I genuinely want to break up to not stand in her way of finding a higher value man, or wingman her into realizing she deserves someone better. She has very low self-esteem and it's obvious she's just settling for me because I was nice to her. I want to get some sexual experience before we meet (it's currently an LDR -- and yes I know we're doomed just from that) but she doesn't want to open the relationship. She actually has a body count (I'm guess about 5-7) and I have nothing, and it makes me feel emasculated. Reading Red Pill posts have made me feel better about myself, and make me want to just subscribe to abundance and fuck around, but cheating doesn't sit right with me. What do I do? At least Red Pill content soothes how I feel inside. I'm a low value man and unless I somehow manage to make my broke ass earn six figures and gain at least six inches of height, I don't think any woman would truly want me.