...and accepting that 'spinster life'. At first I was scared but I am beginning to be filled with an amazing energy. I've worked on my personality, ny career, my body, my social life, my hobbies. I've gotten out of toxic situations (narcissists and takers in my life) that were make me questioning my worth and thanks to this sub, it has made me realize how much I really have to offer.

The fact that nobody else will benefit from the things that I worked hard for... no one but myself... is giving me so much life. I finally have stopped fearing being alone and I am looking forward to just having total control over my life and pleasing no one but myself. There is an amazing power that comes after this realization. That you can be by yourself and be so much happier.

If a man happens to come he must prove himself to be totally worthy of even having access to the things I've worked for. To be worthy of me sharing and giving. Because there is so so much I can offer and give I'm not just going to give it up to someone so undeserving.

I'm finally finally understanding all the things said here.