So basically I met this guy (let's call him Cal) back in July (and pre FDS). We had a bit of a holiday romance (he's Dutch, I'm British) until he went on his semester abroad and he suddenly went quiet. I was upset for a day or two and then I got over it and forgot about it. He popped up two months later apologising for having totally gone cold on me and it was because he'd had stuff going on at home and he wanted to deal with that. He acknowledged that it had been a dick move and asked if I fancied going out for a walk in the botanical gardens he lives near. We chatted and it went quite well. He walked me back to my bus stop, kissed me on the cheek and left. We chatted for two/three more days and again, it died down.

About a month ago, he popped up again and this time when I replied I was drunk. And I ripped into him. Told him I had absolutely no time for someone inconsistent and I was past the point of cutting him or anybody remotely like him some slack. Again, he admitted he was inconsistent, apologised and said he didn't want a relationship (I don't want one either but I definitely deserve respect even if it is for a hookup). Said to me that he didn't want to "bind" himself to someone he didn't see very often (I didn't expect him to and I'm moving to the Netherlands next year). I was so angry I called him a f*ckboy and when I sobered up he messaged again saying if I was ever in NL (I go there often to see a friend), he wanted to see me again to explain everything and that we'd definitely talk.

This was three and a half weeks ago. He hasn't bothered messaging me once and when I texted him two hours ago asking what was wrong with him. He's been online but hasn't replied to my message. And the rose coloured glasses I was wearing have totally come off.

I'm in tears as I'm typing this because in terms of interests he's my ideal guy (we have the same music tastes, we love reading, we both did rowing, same sort of humour and we had chemistry). But after tonight I'm gonna let him go because I've been hung up on him for too long and I cba.

I'm annoyed at myself because I haven't been like this with a guy for a long time and now looking back, I've been such an idiot and I cut him so much slack. Atm I just want my dog to cuddle upto and a dartboard with his face on.

Tldr- Found a guy I saw a ton of potential in, he threw it back in my face and I'm crying at how much of a dumbass I'd been.