I’m a pickmesha and codependent in recovery. I grew up being neglected by two very disturbed parents and that in turn gave me a disoriented understanding of what my feelings even were. I also struggle putting words together and speak about what I’m thinking. It’s a result of my upbringing.

Most recently I had a very brief romantic encounter with a man. I wasn’t even trying to date. I’m working on myself and up-leveling. I have no business being in any relationship. He came at me like a sledgehammer. After a few dates I cut it off quickly because my gut was in knots around him.

I wanted to learn from this brief relationship. After it was over I wanted to process this encounter and what my brain was trying to tell me. I started to take notes. While I believe in intuition I think it’s valuable to discover what leads our “intuition” to kick in. (Of course after you block and delete)

Why do you think he makes you feel this way? Not the generic “he’s a scrote”, but look back at his actions, and words what red flags was he displaying. For me this has been very helpful in sending home the idea to my brain to judge harshly and cut ties swiftly if my intuition stars talking to me.