I dated this girl for 5 years in university. She left me for the guy she told me "not to worry about". I was a beta-cuck then: I gave her space; she could determine how much she continued to talk to him.

I was left emotionally and financially broken. I dug deep. I worked crazy hard on a "company" that I started out of my parents' basement. Four years later, I became a multi-millionaire.

Girls "look" at me different when they realize I have money. I don't like it. I feel like a fat chick that got skinny, and wanted for a commodity, which is her body or my money.

I don't know how to feel about this, being in my early 30s. I'm just coming into reality with how mating markets are. I'm never going to let anyone encroach on my personal sovereignty.

Edit: The track of going to school, working a job, paying debt, being rejected by girls because my "worth" is not enough, etc., was an un-win-able game for me. I could not see a path forward that would allow me the opportunities to win. So I took big but managed risks, read a lot of books, and "went my own way". This was before I found MGTOW.