Hey, it's me again. I guess I'm stuck with my looks on this journey to find my own womanhood. I feel that my appearance has too many masculine features. Like my nose, chin, eyes. When I try to act in a feminine way, I feel like it's very strange to me because I don't look cute or sweet. Also, since I have a genetic heritage, my eyes are hooded and I have eye bags, it gives me a very tired look, even if I put on make-up, I can't cover it up. I was recently considering getting surgery for my eyes and nose, but my family said they couldn't afford both so I have to choose one. I don't want to regret doing this, I want to know what you think about plastic surgery. If any of you have had it done, can you share your experiences?

I also sometimes wonder if people don’t like me rn cause how I look in a romantic relationship, will their feelings be genuine after surgeries? Do I deserve to be loved only if I am beautiful? Sounds quite depressing to me. I'm afraid to project these feelings onto the people I will meet in future.