More of a quick rant, since you guys are the only ones I can "talk" to and I must get this off my mind.

So a few days ago I invited a girl to last night's Valentines dancing party. Basically it was a traditional dance evening, with salsa, cha-cha, waltz, and other traditional dances. I was taking lessons in classic dancing for 2 years now so I know all those dances pretty good. We (with a girl) had a good time, I tought her a few dances, had a drink or two, we made jokes, had fun, all that typical shit.

She was acting very feminine, bringing me my drinks, being very touchy with me, polite and friendly to my friends, all the stuff that we (men) like in a woman. She had a fucking awesome body as well. Skinny, solid ass, great boobs, ok face. It should come as no surprise that I fell for her.

Well, at the end of the party (11 pm), she said she has to go meet her female friends in some bar, but they haven't decided where to go yet. She gave me a hug and thanked me for teaching her how to dance. I said that me and my friends are thinking of going into town as well, so she should text me where she and her girlfriends will decide to go, to which she agreed. This all happened outside of the building, where we were alone.

Obviously, the text never came.

Holy fucking shit, believe it or not, I didn't understand any of this at the time. Didn't realize what was happening. But when I was walking home, I realized that she just used me, the beta, for some good time/feefees, and then she went to fuck her alpha. I must admit, I felt horrible, even my eyes got wet a little. No man wants to be treated like beta. That's why we are here, on TRP. I hugely appreciate TRP for teaching me female's approach to alphas/betas. I understand what happened. But it doesn't help me stop feeling shitty.

Also, when we were outside, I should just grab her and try to kiss her. At least I'd really see how she feels. But no, of course, once again, I was being too much of a pussy to do anything.

I'm not looking for any answers with this post, I'm simply ranting. As Bob Ross said it, gotta have a little sadness once in a while so you know when the good times come. I’m waiting on the good times now.

My gym day is today. I feel I will get to new PR.

Cheers.