Married 14 years. I am almost 43. Wife turned 40 this year. 2 Kids, 8yo and 1.5 yo. I am white, she is Mexican. I work, she stays home with kids.

Around 3 years ago I got frustrated with my marriage (mid life crisis I suppose). Basic lack of respect, giving up too many things in life (friends, hobbies, etc). Life seemed to just revolve around my wife's plans, taking the kid out...which was fine, but I never really got to do any thing for myself. She tried to get me to attend a church I did not agree with, which was very aggravating.

Somehow I discovered TRP and started reading. Bought a bunch of books and tried applying the concepts. Started going to the gym, dressing better, making more money, etc. Learned about game and dread game, and started feeling the anger/resentment phase of the journey I guess.

My wife went out of town a few months later, and I finally felt free to do something for myself. I went to an open mic to play guitar, which I had quit doing for many years. I went out partying late one time, which was fun and cathartic, but just kind of silly. I actually spent most of the time remodeling the bathroom with the neighbor. So, again working hard for no appreciation.

When my wife got back from the trip, I got all kinds of push-back on the guitar stuff. I told her I really needed music in my life. Ironically, I met her because I was in a band. She says she likes that I play guitar, but somehow it's always a problem when I actually want to do it.

A few months later I go on a business trip. Wife has been increasing the nagging in general, complaining she stays home with the kid while I go out (never mind I am just trying to pay the bills). At a conference I get some mild attention from a very young girl. I later email a friend of mine, partially bragging, partially frustrated that a girl half my age can show respect and appreciation but my wife hates me.

So, somehow later my wife gets suspicious, logs into my email and finds the email, my ebooks on Red Pill and game – and of course goes total ape shit. She tried get me to burn the paperbacks, but I got them back safely to my office. To her it’s proof I cheated. In reality I never came close to cheating but that doesn’t matter. Fast forward a few months and the wife gets pregnant. Somehow sex through all of has been good. Baby girl comes along and I basically fall off the RP wagon. I went pretty beta, balancing her needs with mine. I still managed to get some guitar jamming in and really make gains in my business, but I never really seemed to make her happy.

After making it through the newborn phase, it becomes clear that the 2 bedroom house is not going to be enough. So, this summer I managed to buy a much nicer house with some land, not cheap. Not long after we move in, the shit starts flying again. She still claims I cheated and cannot get over it. She says I do not take her out and “treat her like a woman,” but I have all these other women I flirt with. She basically is super jealous and accuses me of cheated with everyone. We seem to be fighting more than ever. She has threatened divorce many times. I don’t know what to do. I guess it’s a classic problem, but I can’t seem to figure it out. If I go super alpha, DNGAF, etc, I might as well just move out and call the divorce lawyer. If I appease, I might lose myself.