So I am currently a cashier at a small, cozy-type grocery store. This cute girl (let's call her b) comes through my line and she is pretty friendly. I remember thinking I should've asked for her number but oh well. She comes in a second time a few weeks later and says 'Hey I remember you.' But again I forget to ask. Third time she comes a few weeks later and this time I know I have to ask. I know a lot of advice here would be to 'not shit where you eat' but fuck it I could sense we were into each other. I tease her a bit, outstretch my hand to shake it and say "Hey you seem cool, would you like to get a coffee with me sometime?" She just smiles and nods her head yes. I give her some receipt paper and a pen while I get her change. She wrote down her name and number.

Later that day on my break I texted her 'Hey b this is gtrman - The super handsome cashier that you totally have a crush on' with a winky face. She replies "hey gtrman this is b, you might've caught me' - What does this mean exactly? Like she's admitting getting caught crushing on me?

Anyways, we arrange to meet at a spot near my place right along the lake. I greet her with a hug and we start talking. I ask her to come over and sit next to me. She does, I put my arm around her, she wants to see my fb pics and says that I should add her. I tell her I have to tell her something important but it's a secret, she leans in and I go for a kiss. She kisses me back but only a couple times. I guess she was shy because of the other people. She tells me she wants to go walking along the lake so we go.

Halfway over I hold her hand. Call it beta or something but whatever I don't give a shit. She seems super into me. Laughing pretty hard at shit I was saying that I didn't even think was funny. She tells me I have big balls for asking her out on the clock.

We get to a spot along the lake with a great view of downtown. I put arm around her and start kissing some more. She tells me I smell good. We walk back to my car and she asks where we are going. I say 'oh I'm just a few minutes from here', she replies 'oh so that's why you wanted to meet here.' Shit test? I say 'no I mainly just like the area and view from the lake.'

We go back to my room. I tell her I wanna show her a funny video, she lies on the bed and snuggles up next to me. We start kissing some more and she says she can't because of her period, 'I say 'what about a blowjob?' She says 'wow so you're just used to girls coming over and sucking your dick?' I had no response. I guess she thought I was super good with girls, I am not. I am a newbie working on some serious self esteem issues.

She tells me I could probably get sex from another girl tonight if I wanted (I'm thinking 'yeah right'). It was weird. She was calling me a hot stud, rubbing my chest, playing with my hair and beard. Like a lot of guys here I tend to resist the cold hard truth that some girls will actually like you. I wanted to believe that she liked me but deep down I felt she was fucking with me and this is some cruel joke she's playing.

We make out more and she's literally putting her tongue down my throat. She's letting me squeeze her huge D tits and grab her ass. But of course I get the dreaded response, 'this isn't happening the first time we hang out.' She was resisting because I guess she didn't want me to fuck her and then ghost her. I try to say I won't do that. Is this a bad move? I seriously don't know how to respond to this.

I try to turn it around on her, 'how do I know you're not gonna ghost me?' (Which ironically this has happened, the last two girls I was with fucked me the first time and I never heard from them again).

I try to push for it a little more, she says 'don't kiss my neck or I'm gonna wanna fuck.' So guess what I did next?

After that I take her hand and put it on my dick, I tell her 'I have a friend who wants to meet you.' She says 'I wanna meet him too but it's not happening tonight.' FUCK! She says 'If it makes you feel any better I really wanna fuck too' This does not make me feel better...

I like her a lot and don't have a lot of options. I am kind of burned out on cold approach. So I say alright let's hang out another time. We agree to Friday at her place. She lives by herself. I had roommates outside my door and I remember her saying she didn't wanna do it in here because they would hear her scream.

She gets an uber and wants to know what address it is and hands me her phone. I feel her eyes burning a hole in me like she's totally checking me out. I say ' oh yeah that's right you totally have a crush on me', she sarcastically replies 'nooooooooooooooooooooooo, do I?' This is good right?

I wanna be sympathetic and understand how a girl wouldn't want it the first night for fear of being perceived as a slut. But I must admit, I am little bit bitter. I hate it but I am. I used to think girls would get off on rejecting guys. Deep down I know it's not right and an unhealthy mindset. But I feel this experience is proof of this. It's like a cruel joke, she get's me all hot and bothered just to deny me. Idk I'm probably just pissed off.

She gets back to her place and texts me. She says 'ok so next time you're coming over to my place? I must warn you I don't have any furniture.' I reply 'unacceptable, hot studs require nice furniture haha'. She responds 'lmao getting there tho... got a mattress'