Turning 24 in a week, finished my Master's in May. Started a new job at a great company, have my own apartment, and about to put a down payment on a new car.

I've wanted to love a woman badly for about 10 years now. Unlike a lot of guys, I can't just pay a prostitute for sex and feel happy about it. Meaningless sex does absolutely nothing for me. I need to have a connection with a woman first and want to genuinely love her. Of course, these kinds of desires don't fly in 2018. Women hate when men are all lovey dovey and care about them. They just want to be fucked hard and treated like shit. That's the short story.

Longer story: In addition to finally understanding what women want and how I will never be able to be in a relationship where I am happy, I have gone through several experiences that have also turned me off from women entirely.

Throughout high school and college I was ghosted on first dates, second dates, hell even if I had gone on 4 dates with a girl, I've been ghosted on the 5th.

When I turned 21 I started going to clubs because I enjoy dancing to loud music after a few drinks. The first time I went out, a bunch of girls crowded around me and we had a lot of fun together. They seemed cool and it gave me a nice confidence boost. The two times after that however, got progressively worse.

I was just dancing by myself one time and a girl came up to me and started grinding on me. I put my hands on her hips and she immediately walked away to her group of girls, and they all pointed at me and laughed for whatever reason.

The last time I ended up going to a club I was again just dancing alone, felt a girl dancing behind me and putting her butt up against mine. It felt nice for a while so I kept going along with it. Suddenly something felt different and I turned around and the girl put a barstool right behind me. Again, 4 girls were sitting there, pointing at me and laughing. Even though I had 3 friends also at the club doing their own thing, I walked out of the bar and just walked for about 5 miles until I reached their apartment. I was so done. Ever since then (about a year), I have not spoken to a woman outside of work. I'm done being laughed at for just dancing and doing my own thing. Girls love to shame men for whatever fucking reason. They're evil, every single one of them.

As much as I deep down want to be able to fall in love, I will never let it happen. Between the time, money, effort, and risk involved, there is no fucking way sex with a woman is worth it. I don't care how hot she is. It really does make me sad because I would love to be able to trust a girl and have a child with a girl some day, but it really is not worth risking my entire career over it. Fuck today's society. So here I am at 24, finally awake. My career is just getting started and I'm still trying to find purpose in life, but I'm happy that I finally understand the truth.

TLDR; women suck, society sucks, and I'm content with doing my own thing.