Has anyone of you ever made the experience that usually when your heart is all into it for a girl and it 'matters' that it doesn't work out literally 100% of the time. As in 25 years of my pickup career it was always like this. When the girl didn't matter much to me it basically runs good, sometimes bad or really smooth whatever. But whenever I feel something "special" ( get attached, tingles, butterflies whatever) I get rejected sooner or later. Not as in oneitis because I can still be interested in other people as well but as in 'fuck why does it always happen like this?'. Makes life boring a bit because over time you get jaded and develop a mindset that 'the big dreams cannot be achieved' only the little successes sum up over time.