Backstory: Found MRP after going out with long term ex after dead bedroom and her flirting with all my colleagues.

Tried to repair that whole thing but soon realised even if it got better I could do better than her and she’d always be lazy and argumentative so moved on despite her moving my kids 400 miles away.

Gained some abundance by fucking loads of women but soon got bored and wanted a relationship.

Third relationship in got together with gf just before lockdown where I live. The start of our relationship was lived completely in a bubble.

When shit opened up again she starts going out with friends and it’s all sedate affairs with her old colleagues etc. Then last weekend she goes out with her neighbour that is out of a relationship with some fucked up abusive partner and on the lookout for a new man.

My gf tells me every minute detail of what goes on in her and her friend’s lives. So as soon as she’s out she’s telling me about all the groups of guys they’re talking to and how her friend is on the lookout for a new bf.

I was a bit blindsided by this, I’ve never had a gf that would message me about how they’re out talking to other guys.

I don’t believe in getting together with someone and controlling their behaviour so they become what you want, but have always told her that I want a woman that that behaves in line with the values I want in a gf, and if they don’t do that I will find one that will.

So I was just like, okay fine. I trust her and I’ll let her do what she’s going to do. If I find out she fucked up I’ll move on.

But man it got to me. I made sure I was up at the time I knew the bars would be closed so I knew she was home and not fucking about. She FaceTimed me when she got in so I know she was alone. I fucked up here because when she told me how she was telling guys how much she loved me I said ‘of course you did’ and showed my insecurity. She got pretty angry.

We met up the next day and she was told me about the whole night and it got to me more because she was up dancing on her own while her friend was chatting to the third prospect of the night and obviously guys are going to be trying to grind up against her.

This was just really not what I expected of her. She’s more conventionally attractive than other girls I’ve dated and it’s not unusual for me to go to the toilet and find some guy chatting her up when I get back so this might be a part of why this has basically consumed my brain.

She’s a really good prospect and have envisaged a future with her after introducing my kids to her and feel quite invested which is why I’m posting here.

I also sporadically take medication which I know makes me paranoid so don’t feel I can trust my judgement at the moment which is why I haven’t asked friends.

Your thoughts random a trangers?