I’m not sure if I’m allowed to post about this in this sub, but I feel like this is the safest space for me to ask for advice regarding this. I’ll delete this if it’s inappropriate.

Two years ago I was sexually assaulted by my LVX, and I was in such a messed up place mentally, and so delusional that I blamed myself for it, and even comforted him after he was upset that he pushed me to do things I didn’t want to do (I know 🤢).

I have come a long way since then (especially thanks to FDS), and I have learned to stand up for myself, enforce my boundaries, and reject men without any sympathy when they show the tiniest red flag.

The problem is that I don’t see myself ever fully trusting any man again, and I also feel repulsed by the thought of getting physical with anyone.

To the ladies who have unfortunately experienced the same, how did you learn to ever trust, and feel comfortable being physically vulnerable with someone again?

Note: I cannot speak about this to anyone I know IRL for a multitude of reasons, including any therapists.