I’m a soon to be 29 yr old woman, who left her last relationship, an engagement and waste of the better half of my 20s over his cheating, revealed to me with weeks to go before the wedding. I find myself floating aimlessly around a very blue, high cost of living state with an undesirable culture, weather, and have long felt disconnected here. My parents have graciously let me stay with them after my engagement fell apart and I had no where to go and am drowning. I’d love to heal and regroup and get back out there But I don’t feel like I should find a man in this community I feel no kinship to or desire to raise a family in.

Moving seems like an impossible task now that my life has been detonated. But I eagerly want the life I dreamed worked and planned for to start. I can’t imagine where to start, or where to go. I wonder if I should move south, or out west, or even to Europe. I’m lost and alone. Terrified of time. My ex begs me to take him back. I wonder sometimes what tf I’m doing out here with no plan, fitting in no where and adrift. I know I could be a good wife. I’m sunny and fun, smart, feminine, musical, have lots of hobbies, fit, great with kids, kind and gentle. I’ve don’t everything I can but feel more terror with each passing day I’m going to hit the end of the road. Any advice please is appreciated.