So here I am just got the temporary child support order, and still pending the spousal maintenance order, but as it sits right now, she now has every penny beyond what my expenses are. I’m literally to the point I’ll be living on white rice and potatoes. Not sure how I’m going to pay for my diabetes meds. And there is no chance of saving money to be able to travel and see the kids. The courts have effectively ruined my ability to have any sort of relationship with them that is beyond a phone call. I can’t move into a cheaper apartment, because that will reduce my expenses, freeing up money for that pesky spousal maintenance. I can’t cut out any bills I already only have basic utilities, there is no TV, only internet. But I need that for work.

Frankly, I can’t even pay the attorney any more money. Im going to be representing myself once I get the one ruling we are waiting on from the last hearing. Then I’ll pay my lawyer for that time and I’m on my own.

How do you guys find a way to actually have anything left over at the end of the month? Since we are in the middle Of the divorce, I can’t move into a cheaper place, I can’t get a second job, it will just become hers or get counted as income and I would never be able To sustain that.

I’m at a breaking point. I’m seriously considering just saying fuck it. Put me in jail as a deadbeat dad that can’t pay. Or do I consider selling everything I own and finding a country that won’t help collect and start over? Look I love my kids, I am not upset that I have to take care of them. But to leave me so financially drained that I cannot afford to even travel to see them is also not reasonable. But then again why would the courts be reasonable? I guess I need to start identifying as a wife, and see if that helps. This is absolute slavery.