Women seem to take up a majority of my thinking. Whether it’s me mourning about my ex (who was my first gf) or looking at all these “All men are disgusting,worthless,” posts by women. Or the SMV scale and me feeling super inferior to almost everyonei come across. So much so i always walk with my head down. People are always telling me to walk with my chest up. I don’t understand it but i guess it’s something i do subconsciously. I’m working on getting out of the incel/RP mindset but seeing these posts of misandry have become addicting. I also want to confess when i was watching porn i caught myself getting into the cuck fantasy. Seeing snapchat videos on p hub with degrading titles aimed at me. It’s my cope i guess. Overall i don’t want to hate women. I don’t want to offend anyone either. Every time i mention something about women on reddit i get attacked. I want to get a girlfriend and be able to be the one to take her on dates and stuff. I find it so odd that cars have become my lifelong passion, but also my biggest insecurity for years now. That i will never understand. It’s too the point i stopped going to car shows because i feel like i will compare myself since i’m driving nothing. It has become exhausting trying to bend to Dads will to let me drive.