I’ve been struggling with moving on for almost 2 years now. Ex has given me plenty of signs she still wants me including having sex with me. I think it was some kind of game for her… regardless… something has happened.

I don’t want to get into the deep details but here’s the outline of what happened:

  • Ex now has a boyfriend. I haven’t dealt with it well. She wants to introduce the kids to him. I’ve been resisting but worked through it with our therapist (we’ve been going for coparenting work). As such, I agreed to them meeting.

  • On Monday Ex told me she intends on taking the kids and boyfriend on a multi state road trip and vacation. I resisted and explained my reasoning. Ex wasn’t having it and, frankly, I went a bit psychotic.

  • Argument continued and Ex ended up at my house with the kids. Kids went inside and we argued in the garage. This is where I really don’t want to get into details but I do want to note that at no time were the kids or Ex in danger. I’d never hurt them.

  • The argument continued on Tuesday and the net result was a visit from the police where I was issued a criminal no trespass warning (I hadn’t been on her property but apparently those can be issued without that happening). Shortly after the police left CPS showed up and wanted to discuss the argument that happened Monday night. I talked to them and explained the situation.

  • Things calmed down, in relative terms, but Ex hinted she was taking me to court to attempt to modify the custody agreement. I also apologized for losing it, etc

  • I retained an attorney today to protect my rights and he thinks there are low odds custody will be changed.

*** this is the important part *** * Ex texts today and says she still wants the kids to meet the boyfriend. I agree but say I want to meet him (the divorce agreement says that’s a requirement before kids meet boyfriend/girlfriend). Ex loses it. Calls me names, insults me, etc. It all ended with her telling me she hates me.

I’ve fought so hard for our relationship and family. However, it’s become clear to me that this woman doesn’t care about me or the family we built. As such, something clicked in my head this week. I realized that today as the venom was spewing from her over a few hours and my pulse didn’t change at all… I wasn’t mad, I wasn’t hurt, I wasn’t crying. It was like I was having a conversation with someone I don’t even know. I told her she was free and that I don’t want her anymore and that she’s not worth the wasted energy. More importantly… I’m free!

There are about a million details I’ve left out. This is the net result though… I’m done. I’m free. Finally!